What is that feeling?

I don't know what is wrong with me recently. I felt that money is very important for me. Is it because I don't have any part-time work? But I have no time to work also. I'm just busy with assignments this couple weeks. 

I just can't accept it. Why? Is it after the talk? They convinced me to forget about it but I just can't. I can't forget it. Why? Why is it so look like my mom? I don't want to be the second her. Don't ask me why, I just don't want to be.

Our relationship isn't that close anymore. I felt stress about it. I have 3 more assignments to rush. Can you imagine how stress is that already?

Just hope that I can focus on my assignments, the party and the singing mob. 

Goodnight.